the other day i found myself horribly mad at myself. i had a clothing order that needed to be altered in order to ship it to the lovely gal, and i couldn't even get myself into my sewing room. it was combination of being busy with work and daily living, the huge disaster that my sewing room was, and just a feeling of being overwhelmed at how fast time has been flying by lately. i'm feeling like my days are a blur. not a bad blur, just a summertime blur. that hazy sublime shade of red. a blur that sometimes needs to come into focus so that tasks in need of getting done get done. summertime is a really hard time for me when it comes to focusing. i'm definitely more of a ride the wave kind of gal when it comes to summer.
but things need to get done. the dishes need to get washed. i need to go to the office. i need to go into my hot stuffy sewing room and do what needs to be done. focus on the task, just ignore that bright blue sky for a bit and get it done.
and so i found myself in my sewing room, fan blowing, music on, getting things done. i cleaned it nearly spotless. put things where they belonged. i stitched up that buttonhole. and then i kept stitching. just because. because the focus felt good. sure i stole a few dozen glances out at sunny day passing me by. but i convinced myself that it was ok, another summer day would be awaiting me tomorrow.
i'm not sure what the fate of this dress will be. but at the time i just had to make it. perhaps it will go into the future shop. or perhaps it will get tucked away as a gift for a future babe. i don't care. all i care is that i enjoyed making it. sewing for the sake of sewing- on a sunny summer day to boot. just like the old days.